blessing.overlooked

I have been here in the house for two straight days… It’s good that I got to extend my summer vacation and I got to rest all day but here I am feeling uneasy because I can’t seem to stand being alone in our house. I cannot understand why because normally, I love to stay at home and ALONE. Now, even if there are no interruptions with the usage of our computer and no one will high jack my seat (high jack is our “family” term of getting to use the computer even if it is not yet your turn) I can’t feel complete and satisfied or maybe, there is no thrill because IM ALONE.

Thinking of how I spent my summer vacation, I spent it by catching with old friends; I always go out of the house, every other day. I got three swimming outings and many get together with friends both high school and college. Its fun meeting and catching up with them. Maybe that is the reason why now I cannot stand staying inside our house ALONE. I also spent it by texting and chatting over the phone until dawn. Though I had a poor sleep-wake cycle, it was worth it.

I feel free and I feel LIFE. A life, which is supposed to be happy, a life, which is supposed to be light and a life, which I ever dreamt of— I, think I am getting closer to it. I do not worry on small things that got BIGGER with unknown reasons; I do not worry for someone else’s feelings. I just worry about myself and that is what I wanted. No one is dependent on me, No one is expecting from me, and No HEAVY obligations to fulfill that needs a lot of strength and makes me ignore about everything else.

I thank God for giving me this BLESSING, blessing that at first I thought was just to make me in pain and in suffering. I overlooked it, but now I realized, it is all I ever wanted.

Probably this would be my last post for now because my Calvary (the term right? haha) will start tomorrow which is Friday, June 15, 2007. My lectures and RLE will start again.

Hello SLEEPLESS NIGHTS…

Hello TOXICITY…

Hello DUTIES…

Hello NURSING CARE PLANS…

Hello RETURN DEMONSTRATIONS…

Hello MAJOR EXAMS…

GOODBYE good times…

Posted by: Dianne Peña | 06-14-2007 | 06:06 AM
Posted in: Rhapsodies