July 17, 2007- my last day of duty at Taguig Pateros District Hospital.
During my duty at TPDH, my skill in taking vital signs (Temperature, Respiratory Rate, Pulse Rate and Blood Pressure including the weight of the patient) has definitely improved. I learned the strategy and technique in taking it without really following the steps taught to us in our skills laboratory… I also learned how to assess different patients with different cases and complaints. I have encountered all ages except for the pregnant woman. I was not given the chance. Maybe on my next rotation. =D I know for some this is not a big deal or a great experience gained but for me, having improved on something is such a great achievement. It boosted my confidence in mingling and dealing with other people as a student nurse and it made me physically and emotionally prepared for the future cases that await me. My experience in this hospital became my baseline to be competent in my chosen career.
It feels so good whenever people think of you as a reliable health care provider. It feels good whenever they ask questions and you could see in their faces that they realize that you are correct and thank you for that. It feels fulfilling for being about to help and serve people with the little things that you do. It eases my tiredness, stresses and pressures to know that they look up to you, knowing that you are just a student nurse.
~ I experienced to insert and IV fluid to my classmate and vice-versa. It is nerve-racking and at the same time, it feels gratifying.
You came and got things today,
I packed your car, I watched you drive away.
I cried so many tears that day,
It burnt my face, it felt like acid rain.
I know I can’t keep lying to myself,
I said I’d be content with someone else,
I know I never have to face the pain, baby baby,
I won’t cry no more, I won’t drown in my tears
I won’t die no more, I’ve got over my fears
And I’m moving on, girl I know what to do.
Cause I’m better off without you, and we both know that it’s true.
Well, It’s going to take a little time, to stick in my mind,
the fact you’re gone for good.
Cause when you said you’re leaving me, I heard it before,
I never really thought you would.
Maybe I should glad that you gone away.
I know the pain would not be here to stay
If I could only fool myself maybe, baby,
I won’t cry no more, I won’t drown in my tears
I won’t die no more, I’ve got over my fears
And I’m moving on, girl I know what to do.
Cause I’m better off without you, and we both know that it’s true.
That I won’t cry, I’m moving on.
Well, well.
I know it’s hard enough, to fall in and out of love,
But when something is gone, to keep holding on,
Will only break your heart.
So I won’t play the fool, by begging you to stay.
I wanna keep it inside, til you’re out of sight,
Maybe then wait,
I won’t cry no more, I won’t drown in my tears
I won’t die no more, I’ve got over my fears
And I’m moving on, girl I know what to do.
Cause I’m better off without you, and we both know that it’s true.
I won’t cry no more, I won’t drown in my tears
I won’t die no more, I’ve got over my fears
And I’m moving on, girl I know what to do.
Cause I’m better off without you, and we both know that it’s true.
Today, Monday… I do not have any schedules for anything. I just lie here in my bed, watch five episodes of grey’s anatomy, listen to music and just rest because I have a bad cold. My ear is hurting and I cannot experience the taste of my favorite chocolate crunchies. I am all alone in our house once again and this time I am not texting or talking anyone. Just spending my time with myself and charging for the big day tomorrow. Well, tomorrow is my first day of duty at Taguig Pateros District Hospital and I am assigned at the Out Patient Department. I do not know the things going in there, but whatever it is, let it be! I just hope I can deal with my colds tomorrow and not transfer my virus to other people. Lol.
Actually, I have many things to do for my lecture classes. It is just that I am not in the mood to read and review. What a bad student…Hahaha =D
I can think of any meaningful post right now. I know this is not a blogful day but I believe in writing, I can express myself, I can talk even if there will be no response and I can satisfy my need to tell anyone on how I feel even if there is no one listening.
It is unbelievable that I woke up early today; I woke up 7:30am. Well maybe it is because I cannot breathe properly because of my colds. I cannot go back to sleep no matter how hard I try. Later, I will try to sleep early for tomorrow. Luckily, my schedule is from 8:00 am -5:00 pm. It will not be hard for me to go to the hospital and to go back home.
I am anxious. Both excited and nervous. I can’t imagine myself being out there as a student nurse because I don’t know the things that will happen, if I have enough knowledge and skills, and if I can apply it properly depending on the case that will be given to me. I hope that everything will be OK tomorrow. I hope that it will be meaningful and fruitful for me.
I would just like to leave one song for you. I always wanted this song. Maybe I can relate to it but its better to not think about it anymore…=D
Shoulda Coulda Woulda
Brian McKnight
Baby, can you put them bags down
Just wait hold on for a minute
Gotta say a couple things before you go
Even though I know that we’re finished
I don’t want you to leave without knowin’
Just where I’m comin’ from, babe
I just wanna say I made a big mistake
And now I gotta face the fact that I
Shoulda been a better man
The kinda man that you needed
Woulda been better off
If I done right by you
I coulda done this, I coulda done that
But I know I can’t go back
‘Cause now it’s just too late
I’m sayin’ shoulda woulda coulda, yeah
I can tell by the look on your face
You ain’t tryin’ to hear what I’m sayin’
Maybe you done heard all of this before
To her this ain’t no game that I’m playin’
This may be the last chance I ever have
To talk to you before you go
So I gotta say I made I big mistake
Girl, you know it’s killin’ me that I
Shoulda been a better man
The kinda man that you needed
Woulda been better off
If I done right by you
I coulda done this, I coulda done that
But I know I can’t go back
‘Cause now it’s just too late
I’m sayin’ shoulda woulda coulda, yeah
I should have done my best to love you, baby
I should have placed no one above you
And now it’s killin’ me more than you know
Letting you, that’s why I…girl, I know that I shoulda
Shoulda been a better man (Coulda been a better man to you, baby)
The kinda man that you needed (Shoulda been there for
you every time you needed me)
Woulda been better off (Every time you called me)
If I done right by you (And you know that I coulda done this)
I coulda done this, I coulda done that (Coulda done that, yeah)
But I know I can’t go back (You know I can’t go back, baby)
‘Cause now it’s just too late (All I know need to know
is, girl, all I need to know is)
I’m sayin’ shoulda woulda coulda, yeah (Do you love me
like you used to, baby)
I know I shoulda, yeah
I know I woulda, yeah (All the things I coulda done)
I know I coulda been a better man (All the things I shoulda done)
Said I shoulda woulda coulda, yeah (Sayin’ shoulda
woulda coulda, yeah)
I know I shoulda, yeah (Yeah)
I know I woulda, yeah (Cooulda woulda shoulda)
I know I coulda been a better man
Said I shoulda woulda coulda, yeah (Yeah)
