vacation.

“On vacation for two days without doing anything but realizing every bit of it.”

I was here in our house for two days straight without doing anything productive. I just spend my time in front of my laptop, friendster-ing, multiply-ing, browsing pictures, transferring files, texting and watching videos from YouTube. Including the daily must things to do and that’s it. I suddenly think what do I get from doing all of those? What do I get from repeating everything that I do every day? Just now, as I am doing this post it’s all sinking to me… I know you would answer nothing but as you read through this post you will realize that it’s not.

Being stagnant in this house makes me miss what I do in school. More so, I miss the company of my friends. With that, I realized that people tend to be uncertain of what they want. I am definitely one of those people. Whenever I am toxic, I want to rest. Whenever I am not toxic and doing nothing at all I feel I need to browse my books and read. Nevertheless, just by staying in your house, you’ll realize the importance of something that is not in your current situation which was there few moments back.

When I was reading a blog of a friend, she talks about herself. I realized that each one of us contributes to what and who the person is. I mean, we are the reason why this kind of person is like that. Why she or he loves this and that or why she possesses that characteristic we hate or love about them. Our very own self is a moulder to each of the people we come in contact to so we should better do well. Of if not, at least make sure that there will be a single thing that will make that person a better one.

Multiply-ing, I realized that pictures become the key to know what a person’s where-about is. I think pictures serves as words for those experiences that words can’t describe. Pictures make you appreciate more in life. Pictures are memorabilia to those sweet happenings in our short life. Pictures remind us of people who made us happy and made our life colourful in their own simple ways. Multiply pictures serves as a blog for many, including me.

Typing this post makes me realize how Laptop has become a necessity for college students especially to my fellow nursing students who are dying to do their case studies, EBNs , NCPs and individual nursing processes. For the past years, Laptop was just used by those working people and some for aesthetic purposes — for flaunting or just for the sake of having one. I saw how laptops evolve into a necessity for I was a victim of always being the “next user” of our personal computer. Luckily, my mother had invested to buy a laptop. And here I am now, having no trouble of waiting, just blogging myself out and enjoying it as I listen to a feel good music and lying at my comfy bed.

Addicted to Internet as I describe myself, I realized its importance for us students. It’s a means of communication, a means of passing projects, a means of transferring files, a means of doing a project and a means of learning. It’s just a one type, one click step and then you’re done. I love how internet serves me. It enables me to spill myself out and let my every reader know what I am feeling and thinking which in real world I am finding it hard to do.

I remembered how my conversation with my friend turned out to be a one great realization. Out of nowhere I just told her that “You know, God has a back-up plan of which ever decision we take, whether it is as simple as if we are going to take a jeep or the LRT or whether it is as hard as choosing your school and course for college… Everything is planned by God.” She just said, “You bet.” I realized how great God is. I realized how immense and all-knowing he is. To plan for every person’s life in this world given that there are many choices offered to him is very hard. I can hardly compute how many decisions I make for a day. For whatever we decision we choose in our lives, I believe that God will never allow us to be hurt.

I am a fan of technology, today, our personal computer crashed, not literally but one of it’s driver malfunctioned and it was the most important one. All of the files and MP3 of 3000+ songs were gone in just an instant. Good thing the night before, I trusted my instinct to transfer files into my laptop. Sadly, I wasn’t able to save the MP3s I put an effort to download. I just saved 1/3 of it. Anyway, going to my realization, for the enth time… Following your gut instinct accompanied by skills in decision making will lead you to the right path. Here I am now, feeling glad that I was able to save my documents for following my instincts.

What else do I miss? Hmmmm… I realized, music really satisfy our souls and speak for ourselves when we are muted by the situations we are in. Together with a chocolate or simply food, it helps mend a heart that was shattered by painful words and experiences. It satisfies our blues and down moment. Why do I realize this? I was reading a friendster bulletin one question was, what do you do when you are sad/hurt? Then majority of the answers were to eat and listen to music. If I were to answer that, it will also be my answer. How about you?=p

Guilty as charged, I am NOCTURNAL. I think better at night. I can write better at night. Basically, my mind is active at night. I don’t know why but I believe that other people are also same as me. As you can see, all the people now are asleep and are in the middle of their dreams but here I am blogging and telling you things I realize for the past two days. I realized that there are certain factors may it be the ambience, time or the background music playing for making good realizations. As of now, I proved it right.

Now I am in my twelfth paragraph, nine of which are my realizations. It brought me into a conclusion that doing the same thing every day as long as you have time to pause and reflect at the end of the day, will turn out to be a productive one which other people will have mistaken to be not. Have I proven myself now? I hope so…=D

Posted by: Dianne Peña | 03-18-2008 | 07:03 PM
Posted in: Rhapsodies