WHAT CAN I DO by The Corrs
I haven’t slept at all in days
It’s been so long since we’ve talked
And I have been here many times
I just don’t know what I’m doing wrong
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
There’s only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don’t try and I don’t hope
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying
Maybe there’s nothing more to say
And in a funny way I’m calm
Because the power is not mine
I’m just gonna let it fly
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
Love me..
What would my life be if I have a complete family?
What would my life be if I didn’t study at SMACC [St. Mary’s Academy of Caloocan City--- where I graduated high school]?
What would my life be if I didn’t choose FEU [Far Eastern University--- where I am currently studying now, college]?
What would my life be if I opted the other choice given to me?
What would my life be if I didn’t take Nursing?
What would my life be if I failed any subject?
What would my life be if I chose to stay on my safe zone?
What would my life be if I enrolled not on the scheduled date?
What would my life be if I didn’t passed the battery exam?
What would my life be if I am not a roman catholic?
What would my life be if I am not a Filipino?
What would my life be if I don’t go to school?
What would my life be if my parents didn’t meet and fell in love?
A lot of queries… Unanswered thoughts… Alternatively, I won’t dare to answer those questions for only God knows what, why and how. One thing I surely know is that, I won’t be the person I am now if those cases and chosen options are not the same as now… More so, I may not be created and I may not have a life here on the living world… I may not have known you and you might have not known me, then life would be a completely different one. I don’t know if I would be thankful if my life would be different that now nevertheless, I am infinitely thankful for the life I have now, and the ME I am now. Although at some point I feel the need to change something that happened in my life there’s a thinking that it once made me smile so why regret. Just learn and live again, a way better and stronger like you’ve never had mistakes at all.
If ever I will be dead and I will left someone who’s dear and special to me, I made up a message for him, it is short because I imagined that there would just be minutes remaining in my life… though this is just hypothetical, we’ll never know… so here it is:
“Love, I will be gone for now but I know and believe we will together be… Somewhere… Sometime… I don’t know when but I am sure it will be the place and the time where we can continue our love story and where FOREVER isn’t just a word but a REALITY. No judgments, no ambivalence… Just plain emotions, just US still living and loving even after there is time no more. I love you so much and I’ll just be watching you… FOR NOW… take care…”
Dianne
I want to be the answer to someone else’s prayer
I want somebody to be the answer to my own prayers
Then we could spend the thing called now and forever
Bonded by love and blissful moments together
How I wish the right moment is now
To let my feelings flow the way I know how
Just a single face when I search in a crowd
Then I’ll know the answers are finally found
I want to be the missing piece to ones puzzled heart
I want someone to fill my heart’s missing part
I wish our magical story would start
And never would it end nor tear us apart
I want to be the sugar of ones bitter life
I want someone to put a spice into my plain life
Together we’ll create a happy song
That indeed everyone will surely long
I want to be the time for someone else’s wound to heal
I want someone to heal the emptiness that I feel
I know we know how to leave but never will
For we will be US even after time stands still
I want to be the song for someone’s frozen moment
I want someone to dance with me and not lament
We will sing in chorus, our indescribable love
And just let it flow with the emotions we both have
I wish we’ll compliment and not repel
For this is not just something novice but a higher level
I hope cupid will lead our hearts to each other
And not just to hurt and be a heart breaker
If it’s with you that I’ll give my heart to
I’ll never be afraid and be willing to give it with all of me.
‘Cause you see, I’ve fallen and I want you to fall for me to
I don’t want to love alone.
How I wish it was just me…
You never know how far I go
You never noticed how much I stared at you and just let myself drown.
If my looks can melt, then I can definitely melt you down.
I fell so deep…
How I plead, how I pray that you’d find me.
What do you say if I tell you all of these things?
Please tell me the right words to feed my hungry heart
But I am afraid to hear…
And now, I wish I wasn’t in love with you…
So you couldn’t hurt me…
UNCONSCIOUSLY…
HAPPY FIRST YEAR
ANNIVERSARY
MY ROOM!!!
A quest for answering this one question:
How come people become so much in love with each other… Love which can’t be compared to any flings or puppy loves, Love which you call genuine, unending, true, overflowing, intense, blissful love, Any other adjectives that I could look up to the thesaurus that means deep, great and intimate… Then, would come to one day when they realize or one of them would realize that they’re not any more???
How can I find it?
How can I have it?
He has have it
How come I don’t have it?
Anywhere I search for it
Anyone I know is feeling it
At heaven, I know it’s unending
At earth, few are worth having
People prays for it that I try to give
People says it’s short and always leave
Part of me gamble when I give it out
Perhaps I wish it can also make me one
Perfection is also with it
Please, could someone be sweet
Please me enough to make me feel
Part of me that is making me ill
Yearn for it as I always do
You can make it come true
You know what I am talking about
Yes, it is happiness that we want to shout
April fool’s Day, it is a day full of pranks and jokes, a day of laughter and fakers, a day of misadventures and a day of misfortunes. Some people will make fun of you or shall I say, “Will FOOL” you and get fooled, but others would be keen enough to be “not fooled”.
I for that matter made an effort to prank my group mates, as I saw our clock stroked 12 AM, I immediately think of a situation where in I can make them believe that I am into. April 1, I and my 2 siblings are scheduled to renew our passport and get an NBI clearance. As the day itself implies, it was a day of misfortune and so, my younger brother and sister wasn’t able to renew their passport because they are minors and according to the authority they need to present a valid and recent passport of a guardian, here comes the highlight, my mother have the passport but it was punched already meaning it is not accepted as a recent passport because she was scheduled for renewal few days before our schedule. To cut it short, I was the only one who got the passport renewed. Anyway, going back to the invention of my little prank this April fool’s day, the scheduled renewal of passport gave me an idea to tell my group mates that I can’t enroll for my summer classes because I will be leaving for states in order for my VISA to be functional. Something like that. Dawn of the April fool’s day, I texted them that I can’t enroll but I didn’t tell them why so they’ll reply. That same morning when I woke up, they asked me why and so I answered the reason above. Some of them got sad and worried because I was the leader of the group, others didn’t react because they are suspicious that it is only a joke because it is in fact April fool’s day. Nevertheless, to weigh those who believed and not, there are more who believed. It was afternoon then that I spill it out, they said I am a traitor, that they really believed me, and that they were really carried away and that they already told it to others. Some just said, “I knew it…”.
Another prank come across my naughty mind, The start of our summer classes will be on April 3 and so since I am the leader of the group, I texted them that the start of classes was moved to April 7 and it was posted on the school bulletin board. They really believed it and they rejoiced. Some would not believe because I just spilled my previous prank and the timing isn’t right. But then again, most of them believed me. I didn’t prolonged my prank for they might tell it to others immediately and so I told them that April 7 is a holiday and the start of classes was not moved then, I greeted them, A Happy April fool’s Day.
I really had a hard laugh. I thought I wouldn’t be fooled for I was the one fooling around. One of my group mate fooled me though it was just a forwarded message, it really got me. Alternatively, she just got back at me and it made me laugh also.
After the fun, I suddenly realized how less pleasure it gave me fooling and joking around other people. It is nothing compared to the pleasure when you have made other people smile because you helped them or as little as you just greeted them. The span of happiness is shorter plus, you have the risk of damaging people’s trust at you. I realized I put their trust on me in danger. Trust is something very important in a relationship more than love, I believe. It is something to be taken care of breaking.
Joking, fooling and making fun at people enables you to play with their feelings. Though, I knew their feelings towards me going out of the country and leaving the group, I didn’t please me because I played at their feelings and it’s not good to play with other’s feelings specially if they are your friends and you don’t want also to be played at. Alternatively, you also don’t have the right to play with other’s feelings if they are not close to you or you don’t know them.
Speaking of April fool’s day, it is also a day of lying. I came across a quotation forwarded to me by a friend that made me realize all of these things that I’ve typed.
“Once you lied, there’s already a rule on the mind of the person whom you lied to, that is to – never believe how believable your words are, even if they’re not lies anymore.”
It struck my heart and made me scared for I put their trust on me at stake. I know that what I did was of plane joke and just for fun, but people might get that wrong and the other way around. People have different perceptions and so I must be cautious in doing anything involving trust.
Jokes should have limits because not all jokes are funny especially if it entails about feelings. Although jokes are sometimes, a way of letting out your secrets and deepest feelings to someone it doesn’t give you the license to put it all on joke because by the time you get serious, they’ll doubt you. Not all people can be joked onto, so we should choose who we put on joke. Be careful.
I am obviously guilty of making my feelings out of jokes, as the cliché goes, “Jokes are half meant” but not all the time. I really love jokes because it makes me laugh. I even save joke messages whether it is green or not as long as it made me laugh. I even spend a night reading jokes on the web. It makes my heart light and it is my way of giving a smile to other people. As they would describe me, I am a comedian but I don’t want to be called a clown. Take note of that.
Since I realized how jokes affect other people, I would be responsible enough to know my limits and I would just joke on things but not involving their feelings. I don’t want to hurt, I just want to make people smile.
